It irks oneself by noticing later how easy his/herself let their guards down to a slightest hint of compassion, from STRANGERS! Because yeah, so much for acting all tough & reserved but when someone approaches you in what that seems like 'the flick' you just lose it all. A mere crack and the walls just crumble & all stories just come out pouring. Massive disclosure outtanowhere like an avalanche, or like when the dam just broke.
Streams of rapid rush. Of beanss.
Just Don't Spill Too Much Beans.
Mr. Beans must have so many beans reserved in himself, he hardly speak a proper word! Hang in there.