wired

conscience and willpower can only help so much before the hormones eventually manage to overpower one's stand.

So for how long?

hai..

hai..blog ni masih hidup lagi.
akan diupdate dengan story2 yang terkumpul dalam kepale otak tuannya.

i love u guys! hang in there kbai.

Hope (stand with Gaza)

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The journalism/report/news sources that covers this crisis are many, and I read them all. Everytime I read and watch one that is skewed towards pro-Zionism, my heart just shattered and I kind of succumbs to denial as I struggle to comprehend the degree of ignorance .

And when I scroll further down to read the comment threads left by others, my conscience was put on a test when I saw those that supports Israeli terror and accused the Gaza resistance ridiculous twisted things to justify the Zionists acts.

My blood boils in anger, but it has been to much so that I end up feeling helpless and utter dismay.

But this evening, on God's will I managed to join the peaceful rally organized by coalitions of NGOs held at Dataran Merdeka, to show solidarity and support in the National level for the brothers and sisters in Palestine-Gaza.

That was like a jumpstart to the shaken me. The rally organizers have few speakers for the stage, sharing insights and encourage everyone as a nation to stand up ad put pressure to stop the Israeli-Zionist cruelty.
Among the speakers were Malaysia Church Council Youth Wing representative (something like that) a medical doctor, a Gaza man and women that happens to pursue PhD in the country, celebrities like Afdlin Shauki, Ella, Hattan, Faizal Tahir.

Early reports says that the more than 50,000 people came to show their solidarity at the rally.


And at the end of the evening, my conscience is - fixed.

Yes it is true, we live in a fucked up world right now. The hidden hands controlled the world.
Only God knows what will happen when these hidden hands feels challenged and threatened. Which is pretty much incrementally building up now.

And we are such an insignificant powerless fraction before their big plans and games.

But remember
أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
"The believers are only those who, when Allah is mentioned, feel a fear in their hearts and when His verses are recited to them, it increases them in faith; and upon their Lord they rely"
- (Surah al-Anfal 8:2)

There's hope. and it is a powerful uncalculate-able element that have so much power.

After yesterday's evening, I know that hope and faith is what I need to focus on.
And for that, it's another part of me that I need to get it fixed. Study the verses of Allah more and more, to educate myself of faith and hope. For that's where the strength are for us to harness.

Just like what our brothers and sisters in Gaza, and the Izzuddin Al-Qassam resistance brigade has shown to us ever so clearly. Al-Quran is their source of strength to defend and fight for their homeland from the obnoxious murderous hate-mongering crybabies of Israeli-Zionist forces.

reduced (stand with Gaza)

Salam

In the span of previous couple of  months, I have managed to write down some thoughts into blog posts but yet to be published here. The subject (or at least the root of it) are pictures, accessories, Ramadhan & Raya, and women.

But i have decided to just keep it as drafts..not because I'm experiencing writer's block or have burnt out.

It is because I am reduced to profound grief, and utter dismay following all the sad news that have fallen upon us recently.

The tragedies were aplenty, to name some- MH370, MH17 and Gaza shelling by the Israel-Zionists quarters.

The depth of my grief is unprecedented.. I did not know I can be this depressed and affected by a global incident. The terror that Palestinians experience is still ongoing..

They need our help in all possible means..be it financial, material or solidarity..and prayers..Nothing else inside my life seems more important than their sufferings right now..Every single thing that I think matters- like my good news and happiness, my joy and excitement about things in my life, are actually very trivial and of petty levels..and wound be right smack pale in comparison with what happened in the oppressed land of Gaza..

My personal emotions towards those little personal developments in my life, does not deserve any of my attention before the vivid imageries of brutality and indiscriminate slaughter the IDF and its allies has done to my brothers and sisters in Gaza.

Feels weak. and shaken. and guilty. and insensitively selfish to still be focusing on (and expressing) non-Gaza related personal stuffs.

And I would rather silently mourn in contemplation with the development of the crisis, and refrain from expressing anything personal that does not related (and help) at all with the matter.

I cannot function well and act normal, when the people of Palestines are shelled and killed inhumanely by the Israel-Zionists coalitions.

I cannot be swayed by happy developments or anything to the point of expressing it right away in facebook or blog. Maybe it's just me..being dramatic..but I do feel reduced to sorrow.

Israel-Zionists are murderous bully, a hate-mongering crybaby, cowardly self-proclaimed victim, lowly pile of BS..acting againts all ground of moral values. Their run of terror will soon end, people of the world are beginning to see beyond their excuses games and card plays.

Palestine will prevail and triumph. Israel-Zionists will reap what they sow.

#prayforGaza #prayforIsrael
like seriously, PRAY.

The Strokes Capitol Theater 2014 full (audio)

AWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHH*fanboy screams
They're back in their rightful form!

pasal boikot

#1

1. Baru-baru ni Sultan Brunei mengisytiharkan yang negara tersebut akan menguatkuasakan hukum syariah dalam perlembagaan dan pentadbiran negara.
2. Sultan Brunei tidak berada pada kedudukan sama seperti Sultan-sultan negeri Melayu yang kini mempunyai kuasa dan peranan yang *practically* terhad. Sultan Brunei bukan sekadar 'aksesori', baginda terlibat dengan terus aktif dan dalam urus tadbir negara.
3. Jadi bila Sultan Brunei membuat pengumuman tersebut, ianya sangat Legit.
4. Media-media seluruh dunia menunjukkan minat mendalam terhadap hal ehwal dalam negara Brunei susulan pengistiharan Baginda Sultan.
5. Kebanyakan media cetak & online antarabangsa mengeluarkan respon yang senada- mereka mengecam tindakan Sultan Brunei.
6. Premis utama kecaman tersebut adalah "melanggar hak asasi manusia", "hukuman merejam sampai mati untuk kesalahan zina" dan "melarang penjualan arak dan lain-lain". Serta bermacam-macam lagi tajuk yang mengetengahkan hukuman-hukuman brutal bagi membentuk pandangan pembaca massa.
7. Sultan Brunei kemudian mengeluarkan kenyataan rasmi yang menjelaskan keteguhan pendirian kerajaan dalam isu ini, disamping menyindir pihak-pihak yang cuba memberikan gambaran salah tentang situasi itu.
8. Berikutan itu, beberapa selebriti antarabangsa menyertai kecaman terhadap Sultan Brunei dengan memboikot rangkaian perniagaan diluar negara yang dimiliki kerajaan Brunei, untuk memberi tekanan ekonomi kepada Brunei.
   

 



















 #2

1. Insiden kehilangan pesawat MAS MH370 yang dijadual melakukan penerbangan dari Kuala Lumpur ke Beijing sememangnya satu tragedi yang menggemparkan seluruh dunia.
2. Sehingga kini masih belum ada penyelesaian bagi kes ini dan usaha-usaha mengesan keberadaan pesawat dan penumpang+krew masih diteruskan. 
3. Walau apapun kesudahannya, keluarga mangsa, dan seluruh dunia perlu mengetahui kebenaran yang telah berlaku.
4. Baru-baru ini juga Malaysia dikejutkan dengan insiden penculikan pelancong warga China di Semporna, Sabah oleh penculik Filipina yang mengarahkan wang tebusan diberikan untuk keselamatan mangsa. Insiden tersebut turut mendapat liputan meluas media antarabangsa.
5. Walaubagaimanapun melalui rundingan dengan pihak penculik, tebusan tersebut berjaya diselamatkan sebulan kemudian.
6. Dua insiden yang membabitkan negara China ini telah membuatkan hubungan dua hala  Malaysia-China teruji. Walaupun Beijing dan Putrajaya memberikan jaminan yang hubungan diplomatik antara kerajaan masih utuh, lain pula diperingkat rakyatnya.
7. Sejak insiden MH370, beberapa sentimen yang menyeru rakyat China memboikot Malaysia telah kedengaran dari selebriti-selebriti negara tersebut.
8. Kejadian penculikan pelancong warga China pula telah memburukkan lagi keadaan yang sedang bergolak.
9. Warga China yang tidak berpuas hati dengan cara bagaimana kes MH370 dikendalikan telah melancarkan boikot untuk memberikan tekanan ekonomi kepada Malaysia.

#3

1. Di Malaysia, dimana Islam termaktub sebagai agama persekutuan dalam perlembagaan, rakyatnya telah diseru untuk memboikot beberapa produk dan barangan keluaran perusahaan yang membiayai pendudukan zionis di Palestin.
2. Tindakan boikot ini menunjukkan solidariti rakyat Malaysia yang majoriti beragama Islam terhadap penindasan dan kekejaman U.S-Israel Zionis terhadap orang Islam di beberapa negara yang tertindas.
3. Walaubagaimanapun, serta merta selepas kempen boikot dilancarkan oleh NGO-NGO Islam, ramai orang Islam di Malaysia terus menyuarakan skeptisisme dan keraguan mereka sama ada tindakan boikot ni praktikal dalam membantu saudara-saudara Islam yang teraniaya.
4.  Ramai yang berpendapat bahawa tak perlu boikot2, kerana kesan tak seberapa pun dan tak kemana pun.Lebih berkesan terus derma je kalau betul nak tolong.  Atas pandangan begini mereka membuat keputusan untuk tidak turut serta.
5. Sebahagian lagi berhujah bahawa memboikot perusahaan seperti McDonalds sebaliknya akan menjejaskan kehidupan rakyat Malaysia sendiri yang berkerja di francais tersebut. Nilai kemanusiaan ditekankan disini apabila tindakan boikot dilihat mengancam ribuan pekerja yang majoritinya juga beragama Islam.Perokok2 juga buat tak endah kerana rokok tu dah sebati dengan darah daging *katanya.
6. Rokok import pula dikatakan mendatangkan pendapatan cukai tertinggi kepada kerajaan, jadi kalau boikot jadi satu tindakan yang mendatangkan kerugian besar kepada ekonomi negara.
7. Kempen boikot di Malaysia walaupun telah bertahun dilancarkan, tak mencapai kesan seperti yang diharapkan sebab mentaliti-mentaliti macam ni la.
8. Kerana inilah Islam di Malaysia lemah. Kerana inilah juga saudara Islam kita terus dianaiya.
9. Kempen boikot ni memerlukan pelaksanaan peribadi dahulu. Aku masih cuba memboikot barangan yang mempunyai kaitan dengan jenama yang membiayai Zionis Israel.
10. Orang lain seluruh dunia serius boikot untuk memberi tekanan supaya hasrat mereka tercapai, kita di Malaysia ni? Lemah. banyak makan mekdi.

Gratisfaction

Gratisfaction is gratitude+satisfaction.
Bersyukur.
And I am now feeling of writing some maybe normal things around me in life, that really makes me full of gratitude and feel somewhat blessed. This writing will mark my appreciation to all these things, and serve as a reminder for me not to take them for granted..This is going to be one personal honest and true account of how I sees the things around me.

1. Neighborhood

I have reiterate my adoration to my neighborhood  through some facebook statuses before. I currently live in the neighborhood of Jenderam, which strategically located to within stone's throw to Sepang, Cyberjaya, Putrajaya, Nilai & Bangi. But what makes me feel very blessed is the environment or where I live- a simple spacious house that costs just RM300 rent per month, and I never have to pay for water & electricity since my housemate & I keep the usage & home appliances minimal - we are two busy guys who rarely be at home for long.

Found this pic on google image search. this one's reeeeeaally close to my place

But the most special thing is the big picture of the community here. The Jenderam generally is a peaceful place, far from hustle and bustle of busy roads and speedy vehicles. Everything's like moving casually here, but the amenities are aplenty. My place is very near with a grocery shop, a mosque, kindergarden and school. All these makes Jenderam in my opinion, a really good place to raise a family. Just saying. The mosque is very active with religious programmes that brings the jemaah close together. Moreover, also not far there is Yayasan Al-Jenderami, a well known ASWJ madrasah and knowledge centre, which is very organized and active. May Allah bless Jenderam neighborhood :)

Just 5 minutes drive from home

Another best thing about the neighborhood I stayed in is, everyone is very friendly! Well most of neighbors are Malays of Minang roots, as well as Indonesians that have migrated here long time ago. And everyone's here seems to be related! And when we move in, we are treated like we are part of the big family. My landowner's house is actually right next to the house I stayed, and his sisters houses are right behind and just across the road. It is a very close-knit community with conserved neighborhood values like we hope to have. Helpful, Caring, and Generous. During the weekends, one house would host a breakfast session and invite all of the neighbors to join in. And just last night when I was just returning home from work around 10pm, one of my neighbor (an Indonesian family) was having their daughter's 10th birthday party. All the people around, and noticably many Indonesian friends came (because when they speak Java or Minang among themselves I don't understand a word). But although I'm late they saved for me some cakes and of course-Bakso which they made themselves for the guests. Malam2 buta makan bakso panas. Layan oh~~ And the cuddling warmth is not just from the hot soup, If you know what I mean :)

The neighborhood of Jenderam is also blessed with some good food! There's a fusion of tastes from a lot of different cultures here. And being a food lover, I really appreciate the choices that I have here. Everything is just like nicely placed, and on my way to work every morning, its always a tastebud adventure. Oh did I mention the road is never busy, there's hardly high traffic here let alone being congested. And along the road there's some very good eateries with cheap prices. It's a village area afterall :9
My current favourite is the Lontong from a local eateries in front of Lembaga Perlesenan Tenaga Atom building complex.

2. Worklife

Okay enough about the neighborhood. My job now is in parallel with my Master's Degree studies programme. I am a graduate research assistant (that's what they call it) and a student. And it is not a dayjob that's requires doing something's routine everyday. I am doing research and I think  I found happiness in it. Everyday is fun with great lab members and research environment, a very inspiring and cool supervisor and a very interesting project. I really love the challenge that my job offers me. Apart from the proven fact that it reduces the risk of me developing Alzheimer due to constant strenuous brain usage, I like my job even more because it (actually its my SV) gives me the sense of freedom in pursuing the knowledge and trying my chance in expanding the frontiers of science. Sometimes I fee like a detective, like Sherlock, trying to figure out something new :P

That's my DAYjob. When the sun sets and darkness falls (ewah!), I switched into my second character as a tutor in a tuition centre.

I've been teaching tuition classes since my sophomore year during my Degree study, and god willing the tuition centre keeps renewing my service contract for another year (yeah this tuition centre kinda organized, they have contracts). In the tuition centre I taught secondary school's Science and Biology and I have students from Form 1 all the way to Form 5. In 2014, the number of classes for those two subjects increased from the previous years, and currently I am only free on Tuesday night for the weekdays. Any other night? occupied with the kids.

Science and Biology is my passion, so everything is just like syncing together and I don't really feel that it's even a job!  I have fun teaching the students, they reminded me of myself during school days, and I learn a lot about the behavior of newer generations from time spent with them. They call me 'teacher' and stuffs, but I didn't told them to. I regard myself to be more of a facilitator for Science & Biology, sharing knowledge MY WAY. That's the fun part. I did consult my teacher peers for some teaching tips since I am not a trained teacher, but for most part I articulate all the infos from the syllibus and deliver it back to them in a different style like what they've experienced in class . I am an avid follower of TED Talks, and I really strive to present science & biology in a interesting, engaging way.

And I test them from time to time, I think they got it!

And that's how I earned money.


3. Other life

When I am not in the lab or in Jenderam, most often I am at an equally good place- the place where I am in some jungle or running some road. I like to run, be it in a competitive race or just the daily training. I have some good places to run around me, where the landscape is nice and offers quite a complete challenge to me, and at the same time being safe. Before I started contracting this runner's bug, I am an avid hiker. I put quite a lot of resources to my hiking activities, and the experience is very humbling. Everytime I was huffing and puffing due to short of breath when trekking  a steep incline with a trusty Osprey Kestrel-68 backpack loaded to the brim, I have a lot of thoughts playing in my mind like " When will this damn hill ends?" and "I want to rest here stop now stop now STAHP!" - which I usually don't gave in and with a blank stare and empty brain, just continue hiking all the way up and enjoy the screaming thigh and quads muscle. Oh the sweet self-torture :). Ah too much to tell but I love every moments in the jungle and mountains.



When work requirements does not permits me to have many free time anymore to completely detach from the civilization and go into the woods, I pick up running. The feel is somewhat converges. U sweat buckets, U feel tired but U have to push on, and in the end you feel very very satisfied. Running has now be a part of my daily activity, but I am looking forward for any opportunity to hike mountains again.

How I miss moments like this.
Picture: starting point of trail to Mt.Kerinci, West Sumatera 2012

I seldom went to the movies or spend time in the shopping malls. I regard my life is just simply revolves around those three aspect that I've shared some account as above...Sometimes when time permits I will go travel to somewhere foreign, just to see the place and culture and befriends with some strangers and make far relatives.

Eventough sometimes we might feel that  we do not have enough, get a grip of ourselves and reflect back on all the things we have around us. Realize the blessings bestowed upon us and be contented with what we currently being granted and strive for the betterment. I am happy with my life. Maybe I am lacking in some personal possessions and material aspects, but my appreciation towards them and how I value things is what that makes the difference.

And as usual, a theme song that come to my mind when writing this up.

Thanks for stopping by! You're alright.

wata filtaa

I read in a local newspaper recently that the Ministry of Health (MOH) will soon table a bill in Parliament to better safeguard the rights of consumers and protect them from potential health hazard.
I am not sure if this covers the various companies that sell water treatment systems and purifiers but I truly hope that it does.

Some time ago,a friend bought a salesperson from a multilevel marketing company to demonstrate the quality of my drinking water to me. The company sells water purifier that produces RO (reverse osmosis) water. While I kinda felt cheated in the beginning when what that should've been an old friends gathering turned out the be just MLM friends trying to put me into 'closing', I just lend my ears and see what it is all about. I really don't understand why the cannot just be through to me with their intention. However this is my experience about that demonstration.

ada macam2 pesen water filter ni

The salesperson measured the TDS (total dissolved solids) in my filtered water (from my water purifier), tap water and the RO water he brought. Obviously the reading for the RO was zero as RO methods removes all minerals and solids. ( But I kept the thought in my head, as he overzealously explained the opposite)

The reading for my filtered water was 7500 ( I think in microgram/litre) as he kept using the word micron. When I asked him to explain what the reading meant, he could not give a proper answer  but kept saying it meant my filtered water contains alot of hazardous materials contaminant and  microorganisms. (seriouslyy??)

Then he proceeded to the second test which was completely misinterpreted. He used a water precipitor that is meant to test water hardness to show that my water contains a lot of metals, or rust. The device is made of copper and aluminium rods. ( It's basic science, this was the fun part I just waited to hear what he have to say)

As RO water does not contain any salt (minerals) and cannot conduct electricity, the water remains to be the same. But for the filtered water, there is ion exchange between the two rods and precipitation take place where a sludge-like sediment is produced. While this sludge is actually comes from the rod, consumers are told their water is heavily contaminated. "Air kamu ni berkarat, tengok ni nampak tak?" katanya lagi. ( Oh dear, who are you trying to kid with -_-)

Of course in the end of the session, I didn't buy anything that he said, let alone the said 'miracle' water filter that produces RO water ffs. I did try to explain my scientific explanations, but they were like overwhelmed with the truth and left at the slightest hint of me knowing what really happened.

I urge MOH to have guidlines on water purifiers that are sold in the market, There are also companies that sell purifiers that produces distilled water.

While there are so many scientific literature  stating RO and distilled water is not safe to he used as drinking water as it is devoid of all minerals and can be very aggresive as it leeches out minerals from our body and also from the food that we eat, it is still made available in bottles and such purifiers are available in the market like it was alright and fine. All of these water sold in distinguishable labellings.

Mineral Water-> Water from natural fountain or springs. Usually not filtered. Have high dissolved minerals.Good.
Drinking Water-> Water from the tap just like what you have in your kitchen.  Have some amount of dissolved minerals. Most likely filtered prior to bottling. Okay.
RO Water-> The water losses all of its mineral contents. Not good.


Moreover distilled water can become acidic when it comes into contact with carbon dioxide in the air. An acidic water is certainly not good fpr the body.

Opting filtered water for drinking is a common practice since it is free from general pollutants which can be harmful for health. But the filtered water still have the valuable mineral contents that our body needs. For further safety we boil the water to eliminate all the microorganisms.

However reverse osmosis and distilled water does not give any net benefit to the body. Because as they hydrate, the take away minerals out of our body.

Hydrate well.

Wataaaaa!!

DNA Babi & Chocolate

Sehari dua ni Malaysia dikejutkan dengan skandal coklat yang mengandungi DNA babi.
Mula-mula Cadbury, dan kemudian beberapa jenama lain juga dah mula dikaitkan dengan kes ni.

Sebagai negara yang majoritinya beragama Islam, perkara ini memang menyentuh sensitiviti, yang membuatkan para pengguna merasa bimbang tentang kebolehpercayaan label dan dakwaan pengeluar ke atas makanan mereka. Iyalah, sebelum ni Cadbury dah keluarkan kenyataan yang produk mereka halal.

Tapi apa yang aku nak tahu adalah, macam mana kaedah yang dah digunapakai dalam penemuan kandungan ni dalam coklat. Dalam akhbar-akhbar dan sumber online yang melaporkan berita ni, aku dapati ianya adalah 'penemuan DNA babi (porcine) di dalam coklat'. Semua sumber quote perkara yang sama. Takde maklumat  lanjut tentang kandungan apakah dalam coklat tu yang membawa trace DNA babi ni, mahupun maklumat tentang makmal manakah yang telah menjalankan pemeriksaan ni.

Aku bukanlah penggemar coklat sangat. Aku terima berita ni dengan beberapa persoalan & curiosity:

1. Macam mana trace DNA boleh ada dalam makanan yang dah diproses secara intensif seperti coklat?
2. Apakah sebenarnya kandungan dalam coklat yang mengandungi DNA babi tu?
3. Aku rasa yang mungkin kat sini adalah gelatin.
4. Tapi macam mana DNA boleh ada dalam gelatin? Gelatin terhasil daripada hidrolisis kolagen, tak sepatutnya ada DNA. Semuanya protein tu.
5. Kalau pengesanan berdasarkan motif peptida/protein, proses2 yang dilalui dalam pembuatan coklat dah menyahasli (denature) struktur protein.

Ini adalah persoalan pokok yang aku sangat ingin tahu. Aku ada juga baca jurnal-jurnal saintifik untuk membantu aku memahami kedudukan semua perkara ini. Tapi maklumat yang lebih jelas daripada pihak berkuasa yang tampil dengan dakwaan ini amatlah diperlukan.

Post ni akan diupdate/ post lain akan menyusul selepas persoalan2 ni dah diketahui.

walaooo

Jeremy Bentham, a famous utilitarian once said "There are two types of people in this world; the one who divide the world into two types, and those who didn't"

Well I do. deliberately and reasonably. Because to generalize is often more destructive

Recently I've encountered these two images/posts while I was browsing through my facebook timeline; each of them describes a different situation, but somehow I feel both of them shares the same premise. And it catches me. I cannot get the images out of my head.

Here are the two posts:

I hope you can read the words. But anyhow the images alone are so powerful, and the words just complement the feelings of the image. I can feel them..If you did not know it yet, the first image was Morticia and Gomez from the 80s famous series "Addam's Family". And the second picture was a NY man giving his accounts on 1 thing that represent his life.

What I can say is the story behind both pictures have a gloomy start. A dark cloudy day & a miserable birthday experience. And from there people can progress forward in two ways..like Morticia did, or the NYC man.

While it's always best to just turn to a new leaf and put the bad moments behind you, and think of a brighter start (like Morticia did), sometimes the harrowing experience can be more profound and causes heavy damage to oneself..like the NYC man have experienced..and the memory left a deep wound, and strongly influence how things in  his life unfolds. Traumatized. and crushes the self esteem.

The reason why this all  feels like the are connected to me is because I usually see myself  as Morticia. In fact I strive to be such-minded.

But recently I've received a hard blow with a considerable magnitude & impact like what the NYC man have experienced.

And it's life-changing you know. It was that bad.

I knew from the moment she dropped the bomb life just won't be the same again.

Ba-Dum-Tsss!

iklan internet: edisi abang2

Abang nak bagitahu sikit ni.

Perasan tak iklan2 yang ada dekat website yang kita bukak, kadang-kadang dia hias dekat tepi-tepi page tu, kadang-kadang dekat top,tengah atau bottom sesuatu post kalau dalam sesuatu entry blog/penulisan. Dia ada yang serupa macam banner, imej & teks bergerak-gerak. Ada juga yang sekadar recommendation page/suggested post kalau dekat laman sosial.

Setiap orang tak nampak iklan-iklan yang sama ye. Setiap orang akan dapat pengalaman melayari internet beriklan yang lain-lain. Sebab website2/page yang tunjuk iklan ni sebenarnya seolah-olah 'papan' je, ruangan yang muncul iklan tu adalah 'dynamic ads'. Dia akan diisi oleh iklan yang tertentu.

Macam mana iklan ni ditentukan? Ha dengar ni abang nak terangkan.
ruang 'Dynamic ads' pada semua page ni akan diisi dengan iklan yang khusus ditarget/sasarkan pada individu yang melayari internet ni. Macam mana dia buat macam tu? Jawapan: dia akan gunakan browsing behavior yang dah disimpan hasil dari penggunaan/pencarian dalam internet yang dah dibuat selama ni. Internet ni pandai, dia tak akan pukul rata je. Sebab dalam dunia pemasaran internet ni, dia nak sampaikan promosi yang khusus kepada pelanggan yang berpotensi lah.

Jadi, bergantung kepada tabiat penggunaan internet anda, anda akan diberikan iklan-iklan yang mempunyai kaitan dengan kecenderungan anda (seperti yang telah ditafsirkan oleh sistem cerdas internet ni). dan abang nak bagitahu yang penilaian internet ni 99.99% tepat lah.

jadi gadis-gadis malaya selalunya akan nampak lah iklan pasal online shopping, novel-novel, perkara-perkara korea, dan destinasi berjalan-jalan. Tu antara contohlah. Abang nampak iklan-iklan acara larian, pasal sains & teknologi dan perkara-perkara lain.

Abang tulis entry ni sebab facepalm. Nak pitam bila tengok dekat facebook ada rakan abang ni menulis status komentarnya tentang betapa internet dan laman sosial (seperti yang dilihatnya) terlalu terbuka, sebab katanya tunjuk iklan-iklan tidak bermoral, gadis-gadis seksi dan imej-imej yang NSFW semuanya. Katanya ini salah badan autoriti seperti SKMM kerana tidak senstitif dengan gejala iklan ni untuk rakyat Malaysia, dan macam-macam lagi lah yang dikarangnya dalam post panjang yang kelihatan kemas dan berstruktur penulisannya.Kawan abang tu juga menyeru para pengguna internet agar tidak terpengaruh dengan iklan kemaksiatan ini.

Abang tak tahulah. tapi kita akan disajikan iklan berdasarkan tabiat kita melayari internet. Jadi apa maknanya tu ya? Macam abang cakap tadilah.
Untuk orang yang tidak tahu, bila dia berdegar-degar mencari sesuatu untuk dibangkitkan, senang untuk dia mengkantoikan diri sendiri. Abang hanya mampu baca sambil menggeleng2kan kepala lalu menaip post ini sajalah. Kerana malas mahu merosakkan post dia serta perbincangan rancak dia dan penyokong2nya. Kawan abang tu berpewatakan suci dan warak orangnya. Selalu share hadis & dalil dan kata mutiara dari macam-macam sumber serta tak lupa kalimat2 cinta dari page2 kahwin muda.

Ha pasal ringan sangat jari nak meng'share' di laman sosial tu pun satu benda juga tu. Abang pun tak tahulah nak kata macam mana bab ni, main shareee suka hati je abang tengok ramai2 sekarang. Pasal tu nanti-nanti lah kalau rajin abang ulas.

p/s: Sebab dah tua ni, penulisan bahasa melayu akan guna kata ganti diri 'abang'. Ok.

Gojira pun facepalm.

Padu

"Hidup mati musik
bangun tidor musik
Cuba bernafas
Ralat itu normal"

The above was a scripture from the lyrics of 'Ngilu' by Butterfingers.
I actually (and suddenly) miss Butterfingers quite bad right now.
And I keep listening to all of their songs again and again.

Well,while the quoted lyrics is somewhat doesn't make any sense to most of the  world populations, it is actually an honest and truthful expression by people that shares the same brainwave like the people of the band themselves.

Butterfingers is one of a kind.
It's a loss to Malaysia when the band decided to split.

But the brilliance live on.
Cruising the local scene in a different vessel
named monoloQue.
Loque,Kadax and Loko are still reliving the ideals of how genius sounds like in notes and keys..even without Emmet.
The guitar pluckings in particular,never fails to tease my heart and soul so bad that my brain gushes all the endorphins it has and brought me to dreamland and their music is the best refuge I have.

"Untok seketika ku hilang kawalan diri"

Butter sounds will forever lives on in the heart of their fans.

lifehack: seeing beyond the illusionment

Salam & good day

Here I would like to share about a lifehack (or rather, a self-taught survival tricks) that I think have helped me through a lot and gave me a lil' peace of mind whenever it requires. And if you think this is beneficial then you might as well take anything good out of this.

The hack is a state of mind. I think it is somewhat in line with what Simon Sinek have preached throughout the years in his inspiring talks about the 'Why-How-What" thinking in creating inspiring movements like Steve Jobs' Apple. The core idea is similar.

When I was younger I've always relied on people so much- as a company. I really need friends to join me doing most of everyday's stuff. Whether they join me or I joins them, it's the same because the bottomline is to have company. I'm not in any means become pushy in asking for company, but I really better get into one.Because if not, I'd rather delay/postponed the will to do the task to a later time.

While that's normal to people who are naturally a lovable person whom friends just flocks and willingly sticks around, things would be a lil' bit shaky for the ones who are less naturally lovable. Plus, when time comes for real friends to depart ways and pursue their own life, the void left before new friends were made; can be somewhat terrorizing. You'll basically be left to go through many common things (if not everything) but now by yourself.
This is where weakness in the mind can take its toll on oneself. The mere experience of having to do sociable-stuff (like eating outside, & making a holiday trip) alone can be quite a challenge and if one cannot adapt to the new situation- which is unfortunate- can render a person non-functional and dull.

The essence behind any activities is the objective behind it.The purpose of doing. This core reason is often gets juiced up with many other 'accessories' that decorates the central motive, which then makes the whole experience of doing it better and fun.

Take eating for example. If we want to go out and eat, what will we do?
We will try to gather up some friends to join along and lepak2 makan sama2.
That's great and fun, but what if it's already meal time and you can't find any available friends to go out with? Most of us will just wait further until someone's free to hang out with.If no one's free, most people will just skip the meal time and just eat the next meal time. hat's the reason behind that?

We eat because we want to give nourishment for our body. We feed ourselves with good food to fuel up ourselves to make sure everythings' inside went on in the best condition.
To acknowledge this central motive behind why we go out eating is crucial, because if not you'll easily get disillusioned with many other 'decorations' that always come with the experience.

We go out eating most importantly to fill our tummy, and friends is not a must. We have the obligation to fulfill our body's need for glycogen stock-up, and our friends don't have anything attached to that. To have company and lepak2 makan ramai2 is a bonus. But by realizing this true fact, you don't have to wait for everyone's free time to eat. Just eat. For the sake of your body. Alone or not is not important.

Humans are a social animals. We want to move and do everything in our packs. We have the ability to do everything individually, but we feel the necessity to have someone together in the process as well. If not, there's no 'spark'. It's programmed in our mammalian genes. But we are blessed with sanity and intelligence. We can push through the mental barrier, and trick our mind to adapt with situation.

If you want a company the next time you have to go out and eat alone, there's cat under the table that wants a piece of whatever in your plate. I always take them cats as a company, like I am eating with them so do share don't be stingy. The cats are kind enough to come and sit next to you so give 'em something to eat too and not just bones.

Or you can go to the pasar malam and buy your food there. And eat whilst walking around the pasar malam, seeing stuffs. Eating while taking a stroll around pasar malam feels like everyone's there to accompany you eating.

In a nutshell, use mental games to trick your mind and rise above the dilemma. All dilemma. Once you can dictate the true reason you do stuffs, there's no problem to go through it by your own.

Thanks for stopping by, you're alright.

currently

1. Alhamdulillah I have turned 25 last April 1st. It was a Tuesday and lucky me my father was around from his outstation work trip in Port Dickson, so I have the opportunity to arrange a quick meet-up and have sort of a celebration with a family member. Actually it was just a nice simple dinner.
2. My collagues and lab mates here in MGI have made a surprise birthday celebration for me. They've planned something fancy to get along with the idea, and guess what? They all wore a (what turned out to be) bib number on their shirt -which meants to emulate my passion for running. Written on the bibs were 0104 which was my birth date.I was ecstatic, I still am. They've went to that length to celebrate me and I really appreciate that..that was the best gestures friends have ever done for me.
3. I hope I am more appreciative coming to a year older. I appreciate their efforts preparing the surprise but I was so surprised it left me lost for words and I acted awkward. I haven't experienced such warmth and love before..and I just stood there like a stone, smiling with short circuits in my brain. Cant have teary eyes because I think the tearducts has been blocked for ages.
4. I am thankful for being blessed with thoughtful friends.
5. being me, I actually have thought of something in mind that time around. I thought about being 25. Being quarter century. I was made aware that it's the time around where life predicaments and challenges would try you for real. I can just prepare and try to embrace life as a young adult.
6. And boy it's not long before the challenges started to appear. And  it'd hit hard right smack in the middle. I got ditched on april 2nd, thru some texts messages. I really didn't see that coming. It's over after almost 4 years.
7. The reasons were multiple. Anyways, I let her go.You can't force anyone to feel the same way you feels. Waiting is a hard thing for everyone. I've got some peace of mind because I was let know of the reason behind it.
8. The situation is like in one of those tangled TV drama. I discovered that some of our mutual friends ( well I really thought they were my friends) has been advising her and sharing their opinions- which actually have discouraged her from staying any longer in the relationship. She and I were doing fine, but the relationship is as fragile and vulnerable as any long-distance relationship are. And she was a good girl with a good naive heart. It was sad that some friends just thinks they knew better and can decide the fate of our truce based from observation and judgement.
9. I am not pointing fingers. While I admit my weaknesses I still believe (and hope) that friends should come to me too just as they did with the other pary,and offer advices and encouragement first - if they really want to help us, because we are all friends. That's how things should be interfered, instead of just taking sides , stipulate and just tell her to pull the plugs off. Which literally left me in the dark.
10. Well they succeeded.And that really kills me. But I don't want to hold grudges or spend my time being offended.
11. I guess that people take sides and that doesn't mean that they're are bad. I am just unfortunate and not deservant to have what I dreamt for.
12. But what irritates me is the fact that while the relationship journey is still ongoing and living, some people just feels to have the power to jump in and decided that it's not right and brainwashed her to cut the ties. And plus, they're are our friends. 
13. This were all due to the stigma that young adults, particularly women should get married around the age of 25+-. The latest is 26. By 27 they should already have a baby.
14. While that's the best-case scenario and ideally dreamt by everyone, sometimes people requires some extra time to sort things out.
15. Failure to do so within the time limit apparently will bust everything planned. Just like a product which has its fixed expiry date. The difference is just that the age-limit is not real, it is just a state of mind. 
16. We live in the era where efforts- no matter how profound and dedicated it is, meant nothing before the desired outcome can be seen. Only the results that counts.
17. I have saved quite significant amount money for that dream. And now it has been swept away and I don't think I'll be trusting anyone anymore.
18. I'm planning to use the saving as capital to start up a bussiness or maybe just invest them.
19. and send both my parents to Umrah/hajj.
20. And also use them to travel even more.I will let my wanderlust leads me anywhere it wants to go.
21. I have accepted the facts. And ready for more tribulations
22. betrayal, and loss, are just part and parcel of life.
23. but still,..
24. This post keeps going just to reach number 25
25. I always have a song for every occasion.

solitary

I guess it's gonna be just me then.

.............

stand by your country

The search for MH370 is still ongoing in high hopes.
I don't want to let myself have the liberty to just speculate and craft yet another unnecessary argument about the tragedy. Respect the families of the passengers and crews.

However one takeaway from all this, the catch from this unfortunate incident is that;
no one has the monopoly on grief. No one has the right to claim more weightage to be sad and feel victimized.

because that is the thing that shapes one's attitude and hence the reactions towards the dreaded hardship we are dealing with together right now.

No one has the monopoly on grief. Particularly when no one's wanting it to happen.
So, we have all the reason to be sad..just like the other party can be sad. We cannot just dissaprove and ridicule other's broken hearts, let alone pointing fingers with all the conspiracy theories and accusations as we are all at a rough patch. The benefit of doubt, does not apply here.

stand by your country.
stand by your home.

Phrases for the Young

As i am nearing to my birthday (dont know whether i would lived up to it but nevermind) the old soul in me feels like writing down some insights, or rather, some self-learnt advices, in this blogsphere.

First of all, by addressing the title as above does not mean in any sense that i am old :-P

Secondly, no this is not a write-up about a 2010 musical masterpiece that goes by the same title by Julian Casablancas. I'll just leave the fact that Jules and all other The Strokes band members are my forever-favourites and I memorize all and yes dear by that i mean all their songs whether as a band or their individual projects.*pauses* *start singing*

Phrazes For The Young

Apart from the basic things like study well and become really good at what you are studying..

1. If you're still in your varsity undergrad years:

• Take-up any new language class offered. The fees are dead cheap compared to those in bussiness-centric language centres anywhere in town. As a matter of fact, take all the skill classes in university because they're all cheap compared to those outside. Be it swimming, playing music or anything. If you are smart you can learn them all for free.
• Don't spend your scholarship/loan money so recklessly, force yourself to set aside a portion for saving every semester until you finish your study. You dont have to think what it's for. Just do it. You'll thank me later.
• Enroll for student-exchange programme. Get sent off to new environments in any other part of world. Being an exchange student is a great way to travel without spending a fortune (of your own money).
• If you're not enlisted as exchange student dont worry, university students are blessed with holidays anyway so use them to travel. Do it solo or with your buddies, just be in the travel mode anywhere and i really mean 'travel' not 'tourist'. Know the difference.And do it backpackers style, there's a lot of reference out there. you can go far or local.
• Go join outdoor activities to spend your holidays. The great trips take few days to more that a week so you are in the right time to experience this. Things will be next to impossible when you are no longer a student trust me.
• Find part time jobs to fill in the gaps during the semester. Get one that you can handle. Valuable experience to be gained, apart from extra money.
• If there are any clubs/student movements that excites you in the university, join them and be an active member. If all were dull cliche and boring, look for any nearby out of the university. I'm talking about out-of-conventional,constructively positive activities like running, or poetry, or usrah, or liverpool supporters club. things like that.
• befriend not only with your fellow peers, but with your seniors, juniors, random people you meet everyday, the management staffs at your residential college and faculties, your lecturer, the bus driver, the gardener, and not to forget people that runs the cafes where you eat.
• I will add if anything comes to mind.

If your student days is a thing of the past, now you are in your early 20s, just started working and is still trying to figure out the things around you and get them into place. 

• No sweat, there's still a lot of possibilities ahead.
• Try to find time for some time-out. I mean real time out, go outdoors. Travel to new places.
• Take up healthy lifestyle. It's good if you're already practicing it. If you're not, then start now. Running, cycling, swimming, anything will do as long as it is regular and really gets your heart pumping.
• And by healthy lifestyle i mean healthy diet too. Drink milk and watch your food intake. Take necessary supplement.We need to groom our body starting now if we want to look strong and fresh  in our old days. If god is willing we might be able to live long enough with might to see our grandchildren.
• Save money #1. for contingency expenses.
• Save money #2 for no reason.
• Save money #3 for no reason again because you've done it.
• Get credit education to manage our credits (if any). Try to be credit-free as early as possible.
• My Prof said that our brain cells will start to deteriorate when we reach 25. So apart from physical exercise, gauge your brain as well to make sure those neurons are alive and kicking. 
• Take a good care of your parents, by leading them to healthy lifestyle because now it's health that matters the most.
• I will add further if anything worth of sharing crosses in mind.

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I've heard people say that life starts at 40. 

I think it's because by  this age we will reap the sow of all our investments we have made in our younger days.

By this time most likely we have managed to secure few basic assets like a house, or a car, and a piece of land. We have a secured, stable and career. And If we are married early by this age we might already have a growing family, maybe with two children,with our first child is in his/her first big examination in education. 

But when we are 40 too the brutal fact of life will begin to manifest itself  even more. When we are 40, what is the age of our parents? In that range of age our beloved parents might have fallen ill, and truth hurts but they may leave us to meet the Creator, and we will experience one of the dreaded fact of adult life..

And I've heard some say that life starts at 30.

And this is true physiologically. Our body will achieve it's best physical ability in the range of 30.

If you see all the top athletes in any field, they're in their late 20s (28-29) to early 30s. But this only applies only of you have been nurturing your body with the proper resources and have been doing enough training and conditioning to build strong physique. That's why you have to start taking care of your body early, so that you'll have you life ahead of you in better forms, and that serves as a good basis for a better old days.

For me, life starts whenever you realize that life is there for you to decorate it.

I refuse to be part of the system where your life expectations have been laid down in a template and everyine have to grow old in the same fashion and in the same manner. We take what's good and example them, but lead our own life, our own way. Experience life to the fullest. 

And that's is the moment, life really starts.

I have faith in my insights as above. I don't have many followers, and I am not in any real position to tell people what's better to do, but I am always amazed by how people around asks me sometimes about real heavy stuffs. Most often than get flattered,i t caught me off-guard and makes me wonder, what have i done to give them such an impression. I guess you never can tell how you appear in anyone's eye.

I just have some juniors, siblings and relatives, and as I'm teaching tuition class I have some teens that I am constantly get engaged with. Apart from all the lessons and knowledge, I share some personal insights like these too. And of course I have this blog where I can just pour my thoughts.

Thanks for stopping by! you're alright.

survival (hutan batu)

life has always been sneaky to say the least. ada saja plot twist yang bagi suasana lagi menarik.
While pressures from most life aspects (eg:emotions & workloads) were manageable, i found that financial challenges trickier thus fun to interplay with.

There was a time when the monthly allowance from my gradstudent dayjob got stuck for 7 months. While my living expenses are fairly low since I lead a simple single life and all my regular points is located not far from each other, it's still hard sustain normal living without your major source of income for >half of the year. Evenhough I have 2nd source of income as a tutor for a tuition centre, I primarily reserve that one to finance my hobbies and travel/backpacking plans.

So the 7-month period went quite well i think, with new survival strategies rediscovered & improvisation skills polished. I would like to share some things I did to make sure I didn't fell miserable through that time, the keywords are two; Cheapskate & Opportunist.

1) I've never been a fashions & trends person anyway so I do not succumb to the desire for shopping clothes & stuffs. In fact i can't remember the last time I bought myself new clothes. The running  & outdoor events that I regularly joined however, always come with the ever-attractive, sports-branded event tshirt so that's how I compensate in the obligation of renewing the wardrobe. In fact,got too many of them.

2) There are 3 priorities when the cash are low. The rent, the gas/petrol, and then food. Other than that will have to wait.

3)Though we may become technically (and hopefully temporarily) broke, but be a health-conscious kind of broke. Limited money to spend doesn't mean you have to compromize your body's right to be well-fed. I refrain eating instant noodle and other junk stuffs though there are the most economic, price-wise. Gotta love your body.

4) Identify the cheap food options that were available around you, and hold to those that have the value for money and still have reasonable nutritional value retained in it. A rm4/5 meal which allows you to have a lot of rice(carbs) and a huge piece of chicken (protein) plus some vegies is always better than a packet of rm 1.80 maggie. One mapley here gives a generous amount of white rice,huge fried chicken breast, with some vegies and mixed gravy for just rm4.50. I normally bought this as take-away and have them splitted for 2-3 servings. So the dispersed cost would be around rm1.50 for a still-reasonable serving of nasi campur, eaten 3x.

5) I've also identified several other target menus in the vicinity that offer best value for every penny spent,  portion,price & nutrinion-wise. A rm3 chicken kebab @ukm, a rm4 nasi kukus ayam berempah @seri putra, a rm3.50 nasi lemak ayam besar@sek1, rm4.50 nasi campur @azuralama and few others.

I also get my carbs & protein source quite largely on breads & eggs. have a nice breakfast of hard-boiled/half-cooked eggs with toasted bread. An array of eggs  for ~rm10,and loaf of bread for rm~3, can last for weeks.

6) This done right can enable you to eat good for ~5-6 times a day for merely rm10.

7) It's like what Kevin Zahri has said; eat frequently but keep the portion small each time, instead of melantak sebukit nasi sekali hadap and then feel extra-full and bloated macam ular sawa. That's not good for your body. Indulge yourself with the pleasant taste, but bear in mind of the portion you eat. Hydrate well and exercise regularly. "You are what you eat"

8) make  full-use of the facilities in the pantry at your workplace. They have microwave oven and toasters that are under-utilized I think. Plus there are many edible things that are left to expire because the individuals who initially brought them are very generous to buy large, with the intention to allow others enjoy as well, But most of the time people here were too busy with their work and hardly visit the pantry to prepare the foods. Not anything fancy, i'm talking about jumbo-sized breads and jars of peanut butter and jams. These are the most-left-to-expire items. In this dire-time of mine, it's me who become a somewhat timely scavenger, preparing a peanut butter toast topped with ice cream.

9) Yes, here we have weekly ice-cream session for us to unwind. And most of the time they weren't finished and the remaining ice-cream tabs are still stacking up in the fridge @pantry. Be experimental with all the available items, you can make quite a treat out of them.

10) It can be more economic if you can cook at home. But in my case, our kitchen isn't  really functional. Fortunately in this idealville neighborhood where I live in the neighbours are close-kit and friendly. So I do get invitations to luch/have a tea at my neighbours house. Every time there's such calling I'll be like.."alhamdulillaaah~ *bersyukurlahh face".

11) The make the food-hunt more interesting, I occasionally visit the 'canteen corner' at the nearby grocery stores eg Giants and Tesco. I'm not talking about any food court which is located inside the complex. Well i don't know if you'd notice it but in these supermarkets they have a section ran by the company itself, where they sell on-the-go meals, they have different items for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Everything is in packagings, meaning it's only for take-aways. I kinda enjoy the experience browsing the menu over the counter; the have burgers, half/quarter-roasted chickens, chicken chop, breaded fish fillet, nasi lemak, sushi, and even rice with packeted sayur campur,ikan asam pedas (and other familiar local dishes too). Though the food presentations (and taste) may not score full marks, it'll do more than enough at least for me. Plus we can ask the cashier to microwave re-heat our meal upon buying. And most importantly, it is very cheap. All of the said menus are ~rm4, and usually I will time my visit there to be late-evening around 6pm, where the section has started to clear its bussiness for the day and all the prices were reduced to half. Every time I did these I feel like Misae, the mother of Shin Chan :-P

12) About getting around places. Yes for sure we have places to go everyday. I will carefully plan my to-do things and try my best to get the most things to be done in a one-way/parallel manner. I'll try to time my visits to places so that I can get them done only in one clean-cut outing. No fuss and back-and-forth travelling. Reason, to save up the gas/petrol. Yes I can be THAT particular in dire times.

13) Opportunistic. This is a confession. Quite a number of times I ride the KTM Komuter rail service without spending a penny. Well, there's weaknesses and flaws in their system, most of the gate/barrier in the station is not functional since forever, so one can pass through even without ticket. I've identified these station where I commonly use, and take advantage of them. Gotta save as much as u can yaw.

14) If you really know me in real-life, you would notice my activities and whereabouts. In the 7-month broke period, I travelled to Thai, Singapore, and Indonesia as well as some other local places in Malaysia. How can I pull such a feat? The answer is meticulous timing, smart utilization of resources and well-planned trips. You don't have to be rich to experience the world. If you wait for the right time, it'll never come. Make it happen. You can do it backpackers style; and don't be a tourist, be a traveller ;-) Maybe I'll elaborate later about my wanderlust and travel life in another post.

15) Boys dont ask money from their parents when they're broke. Even on wit's end. Not anymore. So embrace the hardship of life with high-spirit. Feel the thrill and find a way. This can be a good experience that adds another chapter in your book of life. It's one of those kinda stories that you'll be smiling upon when you reminisce in your old days.

16) I guess it would all come down the attitude you have. Stay positive and calm.For me,I'm never a money-person. I don't really put money up there on top of anything, in fact i don't really worry about anything. I can tolerate the whole ordeals of getting my payment stuck for friggin 7 months. I didn't get worried and anxious that much when I only have few notes left in my wallet. Don't worry, there's always a way to get around all these.

17) Looking from the brightside, it's a way to forcibly save my money. Kind of like auto-saving. I didn't get to spend my salary for like half a year, and when I eventually get it it's in a whole accumulated bulk.


Thanks for stopping by! You are alright.
We are alright.