remember me

For many years I’ve been pursuing a simple idea of living- Just carry on with your plan even without the company of anyone else. It’s not like I despise group activities, I love spending time with friends. But I love doing justice to myself by expressing its original thought and vision too. Not to mention we all like it a little different, just like how I sometimes have my own likings and preferences in experiencing things. From finding food to enjoying movies to going to gigs/concerts to travelling the world and etcetera, a special switch got flipped when u follow just yourself. I had a lot of noteworthy stories great moments epic adventures from all solo trips. They're deeply intimate, thoughtfully personal, sometimes sentimental even. Maybe that’s why I kept it all so close to me, I don’t publicly share accounts or photos of these memories on social medias because of a complex perception on socmeds that I have (not going to elaborate). So all these meaningful memories is only limited to my knowledge. It’s life experience.

But I watched the movie COCO three times, mind you. That’s how much I liked the animation. Apart from the musical treat and lovely theme that hook me in, I was struck by an idea that was central in the storytelling. It’s about the concept of existing- one is perceived as real and exists when he/she is remembered by others. And the action of remembering, is of course capitalizes on some memories of time spent together. If people around you don’t have any recollections or experience with you in their life that they can remember, that really kinda make you less-exist in the plane of perception isn’t it? You don’t leave any impact on others, or any mark on this world. When you disappear, you really disappear because no one got much to recall anyways. I kinda think that make sense somehow.

So after coco, I renewed my outlook on life to spend more time doing stuffs with friends. And I did several major group-intense activities already in a short period of time, I think its impressive lol. But life things happen that’s gonna make even more friends unavailable to hang out as much anymore (getting hitched). So either I need to add more new friends, or settling down myself, or maybe just both? Either way- Let’s go.