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Each one of us, every now and then, might get irritated by others just as much as how we might irritate people around us- It’s a common occurrence. How we dealt with it differentiates us. I am guilty as charged so personally I try my best to accommodate the perks & whims I encounter regardless how they challenge my balance because “who TF I think I am to be so judgemental?”. But it’s tough because I tend to get very critical in the early moments after a friction- I’m afraid I might say something hurtful. 

So my maneuver is to just to keep it to myself all hateful things I think I want to say for further two-way monologues because I usually will reach more reasonable consensus much much later after the dialectics.  Like Jules said “All the hateful things you think you want to say, time will turn them into jokes”. It’s so true in retrospect, if you managed to stay calm you’ll laugh off at your immature thought process. If you failed to control it, then the joke’s on you.

But today I got irritated by my colleague’s action and now I kinda regret how I went to react. Actually I’m not sure whether what I’m feeling is regret because I value highly my emotions too (not gonna be easily apologetic over it) but it’s a qualm for sure that bothers me a bit. I didn’t snap per se but I did blurted some hostile retort and express my disagreement…not much but enough to startle them to an ensuing silence. I don’t like it because I want to be a calm & collected man. Need to keep my shit together better next time.

Simple, anything that challenge my balance I am gonna just steer clear. I feel like I won’t be a good person to talk to so I’d stay away to avoid saying hurtful stuffs. Plus not gonna stick with things that’s toxic (to me) that’ll make me feel miserable.

"But in the face of life adversities, will you flee or will you learn to co-exist?"

"But isn't avoidance is also one of legit maneuver to cope?"

Damnit you voices.